speed freak

I went to the doctor yesterday to find out what to do about all this baby business and am on a whole new plan. Because my hormone levels are so screwed up I am apparently not a great candidate for Clomed. Boo. She said we could still try it but that they would need to run a bunch of tests and really see what was going on with my stupid old body.

At this point I said something to her to the effect of "you know, the only time I've really ever had normal periods was when I was much thinner." She said that if I lost 80 (yes eight zero, holy hell) pounds she thinks I would probably ovulate and conceive on my own. Well, for someone who has really been trying to lose weight this past year, and hasn't really moved down the scale very far, this news was pretty discouraging.

I let her know that I've been taking my thyroid meds and my metformin AND doing a low-carb diet. She suggested I start taking phentramine, which is pretty much just legal speed. I was kind of freaked out about it at first because I've been so anxious lately, but she said that it would really help.

At this point, I'm ready to try anything, so Speed Freak it is. I also am on a 40 minutes/5 times/week exercise program, and hoping this works.

When I took it this morning, I was really nervous because it was the first day of school, and thus generally speaking, hell on earth for someone in my job. However, with the additions of the new boss, and a crapload of energy, the day wasn't bad at all. I pretty much worked straight from 7:45 to 5:10 w/ barely a bathroom break, and I was FINE. I'm not tired, nor am I grumpy, so I'm really hoping this helps me in multiple areas.

I guess I should warn any of you that I see in real life that I might talk INCREDIBLY fast, or be a little intense to deal with. Apologies, just kick me, and hopefully I'll chill out.